On the road to nowhere

I live with the pain that often evokes
An odd kind of love but hatred it provokes
I seek escape from worry and the total stress
comforted by trying to sort this awkwardness

A small final chance that I might now ignore
maybe the break, that closes the door
The contradiction of my actions, may now be perused
my brainless plan so clever, that now I am confused

So little time yet excessive time to think
a road to nowhere
a paradigm
ironically in sync

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